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anti​.​ii's if i ever find the slightest reason

by anti.ii

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the rain reminds me of the final tears that hurt to come out 06:41
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'who was i? who am?' he says to himself while he's being hosted down the people staring down at him emotionless with eyes as wide as pools of blood 'will i go somewhere? do spirits exist? he wonders as he feels his body shift downwards he feels the motion settling just as his worries do he relaxes and relieves all of his body of all pain no worries due he says to himself i've always said i wanted to die and my wish is fulfilled' and as he lies in his coffin slowly letting go of all his breath he lies smiling the first smile in his life at the end of his life
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im nothing and i wish i was something 05:18
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i had friends but after that i had an ocean an ocean where innocents dive and become swallowed whole their last breathe being one they regret an ocean where it wasn't abnormal to be lost at sea but everytime you find your way home ships come and go they sail in this ocean sometimes they stay and fish for a short time catching only a few they decide the fish aren't good enough and let them go the ocean of my tears with people constantly leaving and the last breathe of a loved one
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'i love you', she said... and then i guess she forgot 03:10
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flashing down on my face text and a blinking line sleep without dreams because theres no creativity left to spare drained from my screen through art and poetry no one will see through art and poetry no one will care through art and poetry the weak minds it would scare
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systematically ruining my own life by hating myself 05:12
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happy? unknown sad? discovered my watering eyes covered by my hands like shower curtains because behind those hands i am naked my emotions in the blue my irrationality in the white privacy? unknown to others disparity? only known by me
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others can learn to love themselves but i can only learn from mistakes 03:55
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entertainment jobs hobbies money life being lived by filling it with meaningless things
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if i wasn't born the world would run smoother 02:57
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1.2 millimeters of plastic at the end of the day at the start of the day 1.2 millimeters of polycarbonate plastic you leave me speechless no worries or words to express 1.2 millimeters of polycarbonate plastic weighing of 15 to 20 grams you lift me from my weight the weight on my shoulders of my internal pain spin around with your design on-front make such sounds that make me hunt hunt for more of you to fill my meaningless life
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so i just remove myself from existence 05:30
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sitting on a chair constructing music bone by bone note by note twisting each knob just as i twist my heart i render this piece a reflection of who i am

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released June 15, 2017

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